A Stalking Mystery

August 16, 2016

The thing about stalking is that it isn’t really stalking if you’re just super-enthusiastic about someone. Right? So, let’s not call me a stalker, but an enthusiast.

Every night the Commandant posts pictures to Facebook. And every night I troll through hundreds of pictures to catch glimpses of my boy. It's a great mystery - whether or not I'll see him. Still. I’ll spend a good hour or two doing this, zooming in on pictures to try to pick him out. They all look the same in their uniforms and bald heads! It’s hard to tell.

Last night, I trolled through one hundred pictures and found one of Ethan. He looked exhausted, eating breakfast, and trying to memorize a small book of history and facts called a Guidon.

Okay, so maybe my obsession is a little stalker-y. But, I’m his mom. If I can check on him, I should, right? And now, this is the only way to do it since I can’t talk to him.

Besides, it’s worth it when you come across a gorgeous picture of your son dressed in fatigues and repelling off a tower, like I did later in the week. He had this adorably hesitant smile on his face (he’s not crazy about heights).

Ah, I’ve never been on Facebook so much in my life!

Anyway, I don’t know how this Corps of Cadets thing will end up. We haven’t gotten one of those dreaded calls, and I’m confident we won’t. But, I like where it’s started. They’re big on the school’s motto which is Ut Prosim. It means “that I may serve.”

Joe and I both graduated from Tech and didn’t know the school motto. Now, it rings in my ears.

Anyway, with Ethan away and doing all his work with the Corps, I can’t help but to think about him and what he’s doing. That I may serve is such a beautiful motto, I think. I wonder what the world would be like if everyone adopted this attitude. Or even if I just did. It reminds me of The Message’s version of 1 Corinthians 13:13 where we’re told to “love extravagantly.” When I’m in the right mindset, those words echo in my heart whenever I’m with people, and especially with my family.

Trolling through Facebook is just another way that I’m loving Ethan extravagantly. Right? :)

“We have three things to do… trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly.

And the best of the three is love.”

1 Corinthians 13:13 The Message