August 5, 2016
It’s finally here - the day we sign the papers, do our walkthrough, and get the keys!
The entire process has been a mysterious battle, and today was no different, at least not for me. Last night, I woke up drenched in sweat. It’s been forever since I’ve had a fever-sickness!
In the morning, the fever broke, but that just meant I was constantly sweaty. I had a cough and a headache - and the paper-signing appointment at 11:00.
So, feeling gross and after a heated argument with my son (everyone was on edge that week), I left the rental to meet Joe at the lawyer’s office.
It was pouring rain - thunder and lightning.
I went to the wrong address.
Then, couldn’t find the right address or parking there once I did (The lawyer’s office was on a pier in Wrightsville Beach tucked beside a marina - I mean, come on!).
And when I finally did get there, I snapped at Joe (poor Joe).
The day had already been a struggle and it was only just beginning!
Despite my frustrations, though, the drive there had allowed me a moment for perspective. During my tense commute, I kept thinking how embattled I felt - all these things colliding (plus I was sick and feverish). It was like the problems and frustrations had finally built up to an explosive capacity, making me doubt everything. God. Ourselves. Everything.
Driving through the torrential rain, I laughed.
Seriously. And it wasn’t just because I was feverish. I made a realization.
Wow, whatever blessings that are on the other side of this must be pretty awesome to invite all this resistance!
How I could be so optimistic was a mystery! I’m a terribly negative person. But, the thought sort of moved in on all my mental complaining - uninvited. So, even in my grumpiness, I found peace.
I couldn’t wait to move in to the house, but really I couldn’t wait to see what God had in store for us.
That evening, we walked through the house with the kids. Ethan saw the house for the first time, and he seemed to like it. Everyone wanted to spend the night! But, without beds, sleeping bags, pillows, TV, or internet, we eventually opted to go back to the rental. Even so, we left feeling hopeful and excited.
Tomorrow was move-in day!
“After you have suffered a little while, our God, who is full of kindness through Christ, will give you his eternal glory. He personally will come and pick you up, and set you firmly in place, and make you stronger than ever.” 1 Peter 5:10